To whom it may concern, if you're the one in the near or distant future who will be filling up the void left by her, who is not her, and is reading this, i would like to apologize for not being able to love you as much. I would like to apologize that you will never be the World's Best Girlfriend for me because I've given it to the one and only. I would like to apologize for not being able to give my all to you. Yet, i will try to fulfill my position as your significant other.
I would also like to apologize if i refuse to go to places as i refuse have reminisces of her and have flashbacks. I would also like to apologize if i rule out the idea of letting you visit my family or mingle with my friends. I'm sorry to say i no longer want to go through this beautiful letdown anymore. I seek your understanding. It doesn't mean i won't love you. I just can't afford to break down over matters that doesn't even matter anymore. Only time will heal and mend the wounds.
Yes, i do wish for her return at times though it seemed futile. If being with me hurts you so much and you see yourself not being able to just be a shadow of her, I won't stop you from leaving. It's better to come clean of matters of heart for i no longer wish to hurt or be hurt by words which can be a double edge sword at any point of time.
I took my time off today to visit the resting places of both my late dad and grandmother. It's been a while since i visited them and i would like to see them before i go for my enlistment. Both has always been by my side since young and left me to continue what they left behind. I have no regrets and am proud to know they were once by my side to aid me with my upbringing and for that i couldn't thank them enough. It's been an honor to be under their guidance. And to you readers, please do not take your family for granted. You will realize how important they are once they are no longer around to dictate your life.
I would also like to thank Naser for allowing me to follow him and giving me a ride. After which i had a mini catch up with him by breaking fast at Bukit Batok Interchange and catching Final Destination at West Mall. I believe this is the 1st time i manage to catch his soft and mature side of his. He sent me to Ang Mo Kio to meet up with Psycho Wan, Psycho Gideon, Psycho Maya & friends who were studying. Overall, i believe today's a fruitful day. In any case, i find one of their friend adorable. Till then.
Please read carefully. What you see is sometimes not what you get. Fadd is a sophomore in the University Of Cambridge, majoring in both Information Technology and Visual Communications. He has an intrinsic flair in poetics and linguistics and is the coolest person you will ever come across. He enjoys volunteer work and is a strong propagator of blood and organ donation; a strategy that puts him so many steps closer to his ultimate ambition of creating a better world. Meanwhile, he looks forward to joining the Management force, and molding the future of the nation like his great grandfather. He is also an enthusiastic Singaporean and also a member of the Young PAP. Fadd hates being around people and always fathom the thought of being alone and lonely. He has a perverse curiosity of finding out if his cat can stop a moving MRT train with it's bare paws and he loves catching girls wearing skirts in his boxers. His alter ego aims to be the aloof, drifting Clouds who protects the Family from an independent standpoint, and whom nothing can ever bind.
