They say that if you love someone you should let them go, but they never say what to do when they don’t come back. It's a pain realizing that you've not even took a single step forward. It goes to show you're still stuck in the past no matter what you do. You realized that all this while you're just being a hypocrite by still doing the things that you've been doing together with your former significant other even though they are not around; be it subconsciously or not.

Her features, character and personality are something so distinctive that you couldn't even overlook. I've taken advices from my own cousin and friends to try and socialize. Making new friends in the only way to start anew. I'm no avid fan of rebound relationship, but in order to honor my words to make life easier for her, i made a few.

Maybe i did expect too much from them that i even compared them with her. I know everyone has different traits and that makes them, them. But as it is, i got easily offended and disgusted. For some reason, unless they are better than the former, i totally refuse to acknowledge them, keeping the conversation short.

Seriously. I wasn't in the best of mood knowing she was fasting yet blatantly being told, oh! I just woke up. I slept through the whole evening after clubbing yesterday. I'm beat. I'm still having hangover. I understand she's in no obligation to fast since she's neither a Malay nor a Muslim like her, yet it find it a mockery to my own religion after she retorted, It's after breaking fast. So there's nothing wrong. Well fuck you. I just said i need to catch some sleep and remove any forms of contacts with her.

Things wouldn't get easier when I'm stuck with a psychopath who wants me to be hers and for nuts i don't even fucking know her full name. I guess women nowadays are rather daring in their stunts. Sadly, after being put through the lies and deceptions a year before with stories to test my unrequited love, i believe they should do better with the sob stories. Every time they started their little misleading confessions, the only thing that comes to my mind was, humor me.

I grew skeptical of approaches. To me, it's just a fake facade to see if we could accept them as who they are. I don't believe in such since they will be the 1st to initiate leaving. Do not get me wrong. This is nothing close to hatred or angst. For the jeez of it, what i'm trying to say is It's either her, her equivalent or better. Those who can't even come close to what she has done for me and my family or have the same values and principles should just fuck off and don't waste my time.

I have no interest in others who can't even give me a challenge or show me the warmness that she has shown. Then again, i know i'll be repelling more than attracting. It doesn't matter anyway, said the chipped tooth Fadd. I'm even called the stupiddumb. I prefer CHUBs or Dale. Its better in a sense. Sheesh. I can't even have something complementing to go about with my name. They've lost all sense of imagination. The dog. Cunning Fox. Cheeky Bastard. Useless Thrash. Stupid Dumb. Oh please, spare me the immaturity. If I'm 14, i would have treated that as a joke. And acting cute with your twittering like wat ar euu doin ? pisses me off.

I never enjoyed reading such anyways. Even with friends, i would just refuse to read it's content and would reply nonchalantly without efforts. Hidzir told me to get a malay girl. No offense, but i do not want to repeat the same mistake. They are either of the extreme ends. And they are hardly a challenge. We're born to be receptive to our own limits and boundaries and not asking for more. I'm tired of such generalization within the Malay community. It's widespread and epidemic. So what's next? I guess I'll just settle for Psycho Fadd for now. I'd be lying if i say i don't miss her. Till then.